I’ve been thinking about some of the fears that I have this morning.
The phrase “calm before the storm” I’ve heard numerous times in my life. It always had an Erie connotation for me…created a sense of doom. I felt it many times…I knew what was going to happen, I knew I couldn’t escape it, I knew how it was going to feel. I had a way of leaving my body so that it was just a transaction, it wasn’t me feeling anything, it wasn’t me it was happening to. I’m so thankful I don’t have to feel that way anymore. The memories are still there, but it isn’t real. I’ve moved on. I know that because I survived all of the abuse, I can handle my life now. I’m a work in progress in my decisions and choices, but even if I “fail” I’m still proud of myself for getting up and moving forward. I’ve seen the rain…and I’ve learned that it can actually be a beautiful thing…learn to dance in the rain!!